dead [Monday July 10th, 2006 ] [ mood | numb ] [ music | Saosin ] i want an escape from my life. i know it sounds lame, but i can't keep living like this. i really do enjoy being at work because it gets my mind off everything. i don't want to go through life any more not caring. i want to be who i used to be,i dont like what i've become. some people may not even notice a change in me,but i know there is one. and it feels like i'm living life as a empty shell, and i hate it. i wish i could go back in time and change so many things. now if only wishes came true Comment

sweet [Saturday April 22nd, 2006 ] [ mood | sad ] i think i ruined it, i really hope i didn't..but i donno.. Comment

bleh. [Tuesday September 6th, 2005 ] [ mood | gloomy ] [ music | Armor for sleep-car underwater ] welp it has been a while since i have updated.Not to much has happened.School started which is always fun.this is probably going to be a long school year,first two days of school and I already cant stand it.Hopefully the rest of teh year will pick up,because it hasn't started off good so far.And this is probably one of the first times in my life that i am not overly happy,for the past few weeks i have just been so out of it.i dont know why,i guess it is because i am a little lonely but who knows.I just want a girlfriend,but yeah that probably wont happen,i'll just have to adjust to being lonely,it may be hard,but i'll find a way.There is this girl that i like,but i dont think things will go anywhere with that,but hopefully it will =).well thats all for now,i'll update later. Comment

best week ever [Saturday July 23rd, 2005 ] [ mood | thankful ] [ music | the hurt process-my scandinavian ride ] ok so today i just got back from woodward,which was by far the best week of my life.so i get there on sunday,get all my shiz in the cabin and i get to chose my bunk and all that good stuff.i get stuck with the middle bunk and that was no fun because it was such a hassle to get into but oh well. So on sunday when we get there we arent allowed to skate because of it being the first day and all. so me and matt were just chilling in the cabin waiting for everyone to get there. so as everyone gets to the cabin we get bored and start skating in the cabin because people just needed to skate.so as people were skatign we feel these things fall on us,we thing that the ceiling is falling down, but then we come to realize that the people in the cabin next to us were throwing things threw this little hole in the wall where they put the bug zapper(which by the way gave off sooo much light at night and it was a pain in the ass) so we decide to retaliate and throw things back at them.so we take all this junk and throw it threw the window it was so great.so that night me and my cabin mates went down to play some dodge ball,which absolutely kicked ass,so we just destroyed in dodgeball,i hit some kid in teh face so hard,it was hilarious. then on monday we went skating all day which kicked ass as well.then again that night we played some serious dodgeball and again we kicked ass.and we repeated the process of wake up,skate,then go play dodgeball at night all week. then on tuesday night me,shawn and chris ran to shawn's car,which we arent allowed to do for many reasons. one reason is that he isnt allowed to have his keys with him,another is that we had to go through the gymnastics part of the camp and boys arent allowed to be near the girls cabins also we were out past curfew so we coulda gotten in alot of trouble,but the reason we went to his car was because he had a t.v and ps2 in his car so we could watch movies.so we jet to his car,crab the stuff and run back to our cabin and watch family guy.and the rest of the week we just hung around,skated,played dodgeball,watched family guy and just pretty much had the best week ever. and that my friends was my best week ever.and also by far the largest entry i have ever written. Comment

[Wednesday July 13th, 2005 ] [ mood | sleepy ] [ music | embrace the end ] You Are Not Scary Everyone loves you. Isn't that sweet? How scary are you? lolerz,fear me? Comment

me and tim can spit fly raps [Monday July 11th, 2005 ] [ mood | happy ] [ music | until the end-cold blood and a miserable failure ] O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:01:05 PM): ohh ur board O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:01:13 PM): almost about to pull the cord O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:01:15 PM): on ur life deaths a shame (11:01:21 PM): too much strife deaths a shame (11:01:26 PM): he needs a knive deaths a shame (11:01:31 PM): to pull the kite outta the sky deaths a shame (11:01:35 PM): damn you fly deaths a shame (11:01:37 PM): on my nos deaths a shame (11:01:38 PM): e O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:01:47 PM): sit down and eat some sloppy joes deaths a shame (11:01:53 PM): with my toes O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:01:57 PM): he spits some amazin flows deaths a shame (11:02:05 PM): like he is da boss deaths a shame (11:02:07 PM): he dont floss O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:02:22 PM): throws nails into the cross O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:02:39 PM): almost to pop the ballons of a water ballon toss deaths a shame (11:02:55 PM): people would get mad deaths a shame (11:02:58 PM): start a beef deaths a shame (11:03:09 PM): step up to his grill deaths a shame (11:03:13 PM): is dis bitch fo real? O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:03:19 PM): what's the deal O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:03:28 PM): his shirt all blue or teal O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:03:37 PM): sittin with that ugly seal deaths a shame (11:04:02 PM): he probly eats veal deaths a shame (11:04:14 PM): with his sunday meal O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:04:38 PM): with his pocket aces at the table O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:04:56 PM): chips beein bet all over like a new fable O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:05:00 PM): or teh game O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:05:12 PM): spittin rhymes like a lion is tame deaths a shame (11:05:28 PM): he shows me the way to fame O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:05:46 PM): wait don't say it ..ur so lame.. O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:05:49 PM): oh it's been said O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:05:58 PM): might as well go bury urself and be dead deaths a shame (11:06:06 PM): like that guy ted O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:06:08 PM): this pencil has no more led deaths a shame (11:06:23 PM): so we move to a pen O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:06:45 PM): that pen belongs to ren O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:06:51 PM): that stupid little hen O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:07:04 PM): as it shits out eggs deaths a shame (11:07:12 PM): kinda like legs O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:07:32 PM): or gettin at least 4 kegs O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:07:35 PM): in your system deaths a shame (11:07:51 PM): hes so wasted, he dont know his own name deaths a shame (11:08:14 PM): his flows be lame deaths a shame (11:08:24 PM): kinda like an old man O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:08:29 PM): DAMNN deaths a shame (11:08:42 PM): whats that you say deaths a shame (11:08:45 PM): i need to go away O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:08:53 PM): to the church and prey deaths a shame (11:09:08 PM): then go and get my jiggy on deaths a shame (11:09:22 PM): with this gurlie ronna O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:09:34 PM): singin " THIS IS SO DOPE" O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:09:41 PM): fuck it u slit ur throat O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:10:00 PM): with that knife in ur boat O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:10:03 PM): used to cut the rope O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:10:05 PM): to the sail deaths a shame (11:10:13 PM): i see your pail deaths a shame (11:10:16 PM): its in jail deaths a shame (11:10:23 PM): with your dawgs O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:10:50 PM): how we supposed to rhyme that O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:11:00 PM): it's a word. that's ... that's .. oh so flat deaths a shame (11:11:14 PM): like a bat in the night deaths a shame (11:11:20 PM): he caused soem fright deaths a shame (11:11:24 PM): started a fight O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:11:43 PM): under the boxing room light O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:11:52 PM): her pussy is so god damn tight deaths a shame (11:12:05 PM): tim thats not right O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:12:10 PM): HAHA get to the airport to catch ur flight deaths a shame (11:12:26 PM): before you miss it,and your stuck here deaths a shame (11:12:29 PM): holding a beer O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:12:42 PM): chuggin at least 4 without no fear O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:12:46 PM): of a hangover the next morning deaths a shame (11:13:07 PM): he has a yurning deaths a shame (11:13:35 PM): and he doesnt like learning O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:13:56 PM): as the building sits there burning O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:14:06 PM): might wanna think about turnin O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:14:07 PM): g O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:14:08 PM): around deaths a shame (11:14:16 PM): run into the ground deaths a shame (11:14:19 PM): and stand proud O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:14:42 PM): see that thunder cloud O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:14:50 PM): as he sits there in the water O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:15:06 PM): he is obviously known as the farter deaths a shame (11:15:30 PM): people see him and back away deaths a shame (11:15:35 PM): his stench is bad deaths a shame (11:15:39 PM): makes me mad deaths a shame (11:16:07 PM): i tell him to take a shower deaths a shame (11:16:15 PM): but he doesnt have the power O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:16:21 PM): shit i forgot to water the flower O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:16:30 PM): be right back don't move no where deaths a shame (11:16:36 PM): kk O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:17:09 PM): as it hits the break of day O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:17:22 PM): this one crispy lay O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:17:28 PM): is so delicious and crispy deaths a shame (11:17:48 PM): like a nice fishy O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:18:02 PM): goin out with this girl named krissy deaths a shame (11:18:15 PM): she is kinda prissy O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:18:44 PM): i'll send u straight to heaven O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:18:51 PM): kill any mutha fucka that be steppin deaths a shame (11:19:05 PM): all be in mah face like woah deaths a shame (11:19:11 PM): beat dem down with a bow deaths a shame (11:19:22 PM): feed em to a crow O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:19:38 PM): with a little help from bow wow deaths a shame (11:19:53 PM): we just had a little pow wow O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:20:34 PM): fuck this rhyme it's over O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:20:42 PM): drop a fuckin boulder O4 FliP SidE 25 (11:20:45 PM): on it deaths a shame (11:20:52 PM): like its a shoulder deaths a shame (11:20:57 PM): break it deaths a shame (11:20:59 PM): remake it Comment

yo [Sunday July 3rd, 2005 ] [ mood | bored ] so i havent updated in a while,so i fiqured i would.Friday i went to a show in wolcott.it was really fun,got to see a few people i havent seen in a while,and most of the bands were really good.especially shroud of turin and the acacia strain. I had a lot of fun.then i got home and just hung around the house for 2 hours,then around 4 or so we left for virginia.then around 12 or so on saturday we got here,its alright.im with my cousins which isnt to great becuase they are all young and annoying.hopefully the days go by pretty fast because i want to go home haha.well thats it for now.later y'all Comment

supsup [Wednesday June 22nd, 2005 ] [ mood | drained ] [ music | bloodlinned calligraphy-Not another teen love song ] Ok,so today was alright,i woke up thinking i was gonna have a fun day skating.But then i went outside just as i was leaving to go skating and it starts to rain.so i decide to call matt up and tell him that i'm not gonna be able to go skating cause of the rain so he said alright.then about an hour or so later the sun came out and it got real nice out.So i decided to go skating after all.So I get to matt's house and just as we were about to go skating it starts raining alittle bit,but again it stopped shortly.So we head out to wooster and start skating,it was alright,i nailed the 50-50 over the stairs woot woot.then at wooster it got all dark and we hear thunder,so we decided to keep skating,then it began raining so we hung out under the stairs thinking that the rain would pass. But it didnt it only began to pour,So we head back to matts and chillax there for a little waiting for the rain to stop.SO it does then i head back home.On the way home i get 4 feet before it starts absolutely pouring on me.i keep going and i'm getting soaked,i hit all the puddles on the way as well which causes me to get soooooaked and muddy. so by the time i manage to get home i'm soaked from head to feet,i had sooooooooooooo much water in my shoes it had that super awesome squishy feeling in my feet and i loved it.Ands thats it for now peace out suckahs Comment

i love acoustic [Friday June 17th, 2005 ] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | mortal treason-hidden track ] ok so for the bast hour or so i have done nothing but listen to -funeral for a friend:your revolution is a joke -Across five aprils:a year from now -Mortal treason:Hidden track so for some reason i just cannot get enough of acoustic music,it just is so peaceful and calming and i love it and i'll probly listen to it until i got to sleep tonight. Comment

i break everything [Tuesday June 14th, 2005 ] [ mood | hungry ] [ music | Throwdown-We will Rise ] Ok,so i was dilly dallying around in my basement,then i hit a picture on my wall.It feel down,so as i was going to see the picture i was praying it didnt break.But as i got to it there was a huge crack right through the middle.i broke the glass,yes i did.i am retarded :[.My mom is going to FLIP when she sees it,this is the millionth thing in my house that i have broken :[.Well anyways school is almost out,only two more finals then i am done for summer,argh,i dont think i did too well on my spanish final today though,i didnt even finish it,i really hope i did good though because if i do bad on my report card then i am screwed for the summer,ah well cant worry about that now,and thats all for now peace out blitches :]. Comment

yo [Friday June 10th, 2005 ] [ mood | crazy ] [ music | Let it die-lets get ready to crumble ] well i havent updated this thingy in a couple of days so i decided i will fill you in in what has been going down in the hood. So its finals time woot woot,that is always a fun part of the year.But 4 more to go then summer time. I cannot wait until summer its gonna be so much fun. I'm starting it off right with the show the 18th,now that is gonna be alot of fun. I'm really sad though,i found out today that i cant go to sounds of the underground tour,i was looking forward to that for so long,then all the sudden i find out i cant go,GR,ah well things happen. And i feel in love with 2 or 3 new bands today and i've been listening to them all day today.Those bands will be Heaven shall burn,let it die and bloodlined calligraphy.they are all amazing bands so go check them out yo.Ok so today was a bad day for my klutzness.I had just woken up from a long nap and i was sitting in my computer chair and i begun to spin around and my finger got stuck inbetween the chair and the desk and it hurt so bad.Then i went to go to the bathroom and i stub my toe on the door which hurt alot.And i recall somebody calling me a dork because of it which totally isnt true,i was just tired and not paying attention.well thats all for now.Peace out! Comment

[Monday June 6th, 2005 ] [ mood | happy ] ok,so i realized that didnt full explain what i tugged on. Ok so back to the story,i was walking home and i was curious to see what would happen if i tugged on my backpack strings and i pulled it really hard.and the backpack straps got super tight and i couldnt get them off.so it was on for a while and it started to hurt real bad and i was making it hard to breath.so i tried as hard as i can to get it off,but i just couldnt.so i had my brother take it off for me.and yesh,that is my story. Comment (1)

[Monday June 6th, 2005 ] [ mood | discontent ] hm so today,yeah not much happened.i found out that the show last night wasn't to good which made happy because i wanted to go.And last night i couldnt get any sleep,i was lying in bed forever trying to get some sleep and i ended up falling asleep around 2 and woke up at 5 something.i was exauhsted today during school.I took a math test today which i totally bombed but oh well.then on my way home from school i wanted to see what would happen,so i tug real hard and it gets stuck on me. it was so flippin tight and i couldnt get it off of me. it hurt like a mofe and i had my brother help me get outta of it.SO that is basically all for today.PEACE EZ yos. Comment (1)

[Friday June 3rd, 2005 ] [ mood | peaceful ] soo today,i went to school,that was kinda boring.then after school me matt and kristen went to the mall.that was enteresting.the people at hot topic had quite the laugh at the outfit i had picked out there.it consisted of a pink hat,pink sunglasses,pink tie and a pink girl HIM bag and a blue umbrella.So as i was walking around the store everyone was laughing at me.some guy told me i should get a pink shirt to go with it.then we went and played some air hockey,so during the first game i felt my energy flowing through me,so i wacked the little puck thing and it went flying. I loved it,me and matt were looking for the little thing for a while.then we went and did the skateboarding game which was very hard and confusing and it angered me alot,the damn board never went the way i wanted it to.then we go to the food court and i was leaning on the stair railing,so as i was doing that,i slipped and fell down the stairs and hurt my elbow,i actually rolled down all THREE!!!!! of the stairs,it hurt quite bad.SO yeah,then we go back to Hot Topic and i asked the worker if they would give me a discount on the pink hat,and i was sad about. Then i played one of the claw machine games with the care bear prizes,and i put a dollar in and got two tries and i won both times,so i was walking around the mall with a blue and orange care bear, so i took the blue one and threw it up in the air and it got stuck on some store sign,so i decided i would try and throw the other one on a different store window but that didnt work,so i put it on one of the director things in the mall,and left it there.but yeah,that was my day. Comment (1)

[Sunday May 29th, 2005 ] [ mood | happy ] [ music | Into the moat-Empty Shell ] so the show yesterday was really good,exept for a few exeptions.like when the dude grabbed my boob and wouldnt let go.that hurt so bad,and i didnt like it one bit.it hurt for the whole show and then a little while after that this huge FSU guy grabbed me by the arm and threw me,but as he was doing that he again pinched me,this time in the arm. But all of the bands played really well.My favorite had to be vov,they played really well,unfortunatley not many people were in the building at the time so not many people were dancing for them,but i was for a little bittle.Also,100 demons never played which i was kinda upset about because i wanted to see what they were like live.ah well there will be other times,anywho,thats all for now.Peace EZ homes. Comment (1)

hello [Saturday May 28th, 2005 ] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | The agony scene-scars of your disease ] ok,so i decided to make this thingy woop woop. that is all for now,will do much updating later peace out yo Comment (1)

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